mercredi 22 février 2012

Fascinating point about falling.

What I have recently found out within my process is fascinating.

I have found out that the reason why "what we have ever done up until this point is to fall", is exactly because and only because the principle of "falling" is equal and one with who we are as life. What we have always tried to do from this perspective, is to "run away" from ourselves as the "principle of falling", to which we continuously return to for we cannot eternally run away from who we are as the "principle of falling" but can only delude ourselves into believing that we actually "stand" after we realise that we have fallen. Thus, we continuously create realms from within us to "stand as", all the while forcing ourselves to forget that in all actuality, we have it all wrong. From the perspective of the physical as one as equal as life, to "stand up" as life is actually to "fall" as the mind, and to "stand up" from the perspective of the mind is actually to "fall" from the perspective of the physical or, from the perspective of the "body as life".

It is thus "common sense" to realise that "all that we have ever done up until this point is to fall", for we were never in all actuallity able to "stand" from the perspective of "having fallen". The "stand" from within this perspective, is actually an "illusion" as it is a "distorsion" created by ourselves, emerging from our "refusal" to "acknowledge" who we are as "the principle of falling" as the "principle of life" as ourselves. In all actuallity, the "fall" that we continuously "return to" is so because it "encompasses within it's expression", the actual nature of ourselves as life. Yet, we do not "want" to be "encompassed within the actual expression of ourselves as life as falling", for we do not "acknowledge" that "expression" as being who we are through constant refusal of it's constant expression as ourselves. Thus, the fall "returns" for the fall is the "constant" we are "seeking for" as ourselves as life - we will "fall" forever, until we "finally" realise that who we are is the "fallen within ourselves" as ourserlves. Until we become one and equal with the fallen as ourselves as our refusal of who we are in totality as our physical body = until we accepted being "submerged" within the expression of falling until the standing makes itself clear as ourselves, we will continuously "fall", for to "fall" is ultimately the pull of ourselves back to ourselves, which universally occurs whenever one reaches a point of extreme delusion about ourselves.

That "fallen within ourselves", is that which we do not want to acknowledge as who we are, for it invariably brings us back within and as our "deepest point of refusal" about ourselves = our "deepest denial" about who we are individually, for within this "deepest denial" exist a "feeling" that completely and utterly "submerges every aspects of our body - physical -" in despair. This feeling of "despair" however, is made so by the "mind" as the space within ourelves we have created in order to experience what we projected "standing up" as "being". Yet, that "being" as the "standing up" we project as a delusion within ourselves, is a "reflection by contrast" of what we are as the emanating source of that contrast - an emanating source which cannot ultimately be contrasted for it being the "principle of emanating" within it's very nature. The "utter feeling of despair" as the "core" of ourselves as the "physical" is the result of the "refusal" to accept ourselves as the "physical alone", within the "accepted and allowed idea/belief" that "who we are" is not equal to that primary feeling as the "first" and only impression of life as we "emerge" within our conscious awareness of self.

As long as we seek to "stand" from within the fall", we automatically generate the distorsion within ourselves, which inverts that sense of despair within a sense of hope, within which we allow ourselves to "wander" within, as a space within which we allow ourserlves to "seek" for that "stand" - seeking which only exists as an illusion within us, for we have refused to acknowledge the "fallen self" as the actual standing of ourselves which is already here = not to be sought for.

It is within and through the simple act of "seeking" to "stand" as ourselves, through the "fogetfullness" of ourselves as the "fallen", that who we are is actually already here as the "fallen self" to which our seeking to stand ,"forces" who we are as the fallen as life, into our body of "forgetfullness". That "body of foregetfullness" is the physical body as life to which we "hide away from" by sheltering our sense of self within the empty void of the mind, in order to "satisfy" our "desire" to "seek to stand". The mind allows us to "satisfy that desire to seek to stand" for the mind is an empty space which allows eternal seeking, for it is confined within realms equal and one with the vastness and infinite sense of "falling" that is ourselves.

In order to stand constant and true within here, one has to stand constant and true within "the fallen". Once within the principle of "falling" as ourselves, and once that principle of "falling" as ourselves remain constant and stable throughout devotion, life emerges as the principle of emergeance that "the fallen" holds within it's "mind generated" boundary of "despair". Once within our individualised despair as the encompassing field which witholds life as ourselves, despair gradually dissipates to eventually uncover the "absolutely honest and true standing as life" that is kept within the depths of our physical body, behind the total mass of sufferings that we have internalised as ourserlves through the mind.


The mind allows us to seek that which we already are, but through that allowance, we allow that which we really are as life to be forgotten within the body within which we roam unsuspectfully within our minds.

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