I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that
I am a spiritual being as an energetic entity, wherein I have established that
belief ever since I had a “mystical experience” back in the end of the 90’s,
where I have experienced myself “above and outside” of my human physical body,
wherein I could see/perceive/visualise my body from the outside after having
had a mystical experience of some sorts, instead of realising the common sense
within the fact that the “mystical experience” that I experienced of me being
outside of the body was an experience within and of the mind alone, as I was
then within the perspective of energy as the mind as what I perceived within
and as myself within that specific moment was a perception of the outlines of
my physical body as being of energy, and that through this experience I was
brought to believe as being an energetic being rather than a physical being –
within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to
realise that who I am is that which everyone is within and as common sense as
the common grounds upon which reality is experienced for all living beings in
this world, as that of the physicality as my physical body as all as one as
equal, rather than identifying myself as being unique within the perspective of
me being made of energy after having had a “personal experience” of myself as
an energetic representation of myself when seen within and as the mind alone.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise
that the fact that the mystical experience that I experienced as me being
outside of my body was in fact “not who I really am” as that which I really am
is of the flesh as the physical as all living beings on this world and where
the experience that I had of me being a being of energy was ultimately a false
representation of who I really am, because of being dependant on energy for its
sustenance, wherein who I truly am is not dependant on energy as energy is
doomed to expire and thus is not eternal, and that who I am is eternal as the
physical within the fact that all of that which constitutes me is made of
physical matter that will go back to its source as the earth from which my body
was constituted when I will die.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise
that who I am is ultimately not a being of energy, as that which my mystical
experience brought me to believe as being my ultimate identity, but that who I
am is within that which is perceived through the common senses of all living
beings on this earth, as that of being a being of physicality as flesh rather
than a being of energy as light – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t
accepted and allowed myself to realise that the experience that I had back in
the end of the 90’s was an experience which was fuelled by my mind alone, and
that as such was an experience that was dependant on the energies that
could/was generated within and as my mind alone, oblivious to my physical body
as who I truly am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that
who I am within the very nature of my being, is that of being made of energy,
because of having read in the beginning of the year 2000, the story of a man
who had had a near death experience wherein he described having seen his “life
review” where the perception of himself as being made of energy was perceived
and shared through his testimony and from within which I was made to believe
that who I am at the very core of my being, was a being which was equal to the
description that the man made about himself as being a being made of and as
energy – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed
myself to realise that the testimony that the man made about his near death
experience was a testimony that was made from and within the starting point of
the mind alone, and as such was in full separation of what we are as the
physical as life, one and equal to all living beings – within this, I forgive
myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me
accepting and allowing myself to believe/perceive/think that who I really
was/am was/is a being of energy, that I was in fact deceiving myself into the
delusion of the mind because of my own vested self-interest in
wanting/desiring/needing to perceive myself as that which I was not, because of
the desire/want/need to have perceived myself as being something which was
“greater” than who I really was/am as the physical, because of the negative
perception that I then had of my physical self, as the perception of me being a
“loser” in life, and where the thought/desire/need of me being made “more”
through the perspective of being made of energy, was particularly enticing to
me.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise
that the “feeling” of “high energy” that I experienced within myself as I was
reading the testimony of the near death experience of the man back in the year
2000, was a feeling which was generated by the mind alone and as such, that all
internal images/imagery that flowed through my mind as a consequence to me
reading his testimony were only images/projections of myself which only
conveyed my desire to be made equal to the mental image of divine beings as
energetic entities, instead of the very real image presentation of myself as my
physical body because of me wanting/desiring to see myself as being “more than”
who I truly was/am as the physical as all as one as equal as life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, from the
moment where I finished reading the testimony of the man who had a near death
experience, have constructed within and as my mind, the personality/entity of
“high energy”, from within which I have accepted and allowed myself to think
was my “true self” because of the fulfillment that that “idea/thought” of
myself brought within myself as the fulfillment of “knowing” who I truly was as
something which is “higher” than who I was/am as the physical – within this, I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the
“positive energy” that I experienced as the “new found belief that I was a
being of energy”, was the direct consequence of the friction that had been
brewing within and as my mind, between the “negative feelings” that was carried
by the general negative impression of myself as that of only being this “tiny
physical being” and the positive energy as the desire/friction of myself to be
“more than” who I truly was/am as the physical being.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise
that the mental image of being communicating with beings of light, which came
to me after having read the testimony of the man who had a near death
experience, were only mental images/projections that were produced by the mind
alone and in no way was representative of who I truly am, as I was brought to believe
through the testimony of the man’s near death experience, only because such a
testimony answered my desires to be made “more than” who I truly was as the
physical.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective
application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living
example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for
the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for
everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If
and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “energy
participation” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of
me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me
and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When
and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the
thought of “being more than who I really am as the physical”, I stop, breathe,
see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality
from which the desire arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game
and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an
automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and
as Breath.
I
commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring
to be more than who I truly am as the physical, through the use of thoughts and
emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and
games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could
be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back
into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I
commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness,
self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop
judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally
for the first time.
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