I forgive myself that i have accepted and
allowed myself to fear living without energy because of the addiction that i
have within and towards energy, whereas I constantly and continuously seek
energy as a positive experience of myself because of being addicted to the
experience sof me swelling up inside of me through the accumulation of positive
energy, where I become gradually possessed by my own desires as self-interest
to the extent where I close my eyes to what is actually happening within my
environment as the physical because of being caught within my personal
experience/desires of positive energy within and as my mind – within this, I
forgive myself that i haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that the
experience of me when within the accumulation of positive energy is only the
experience of me as the mind of energy, as what I have accepted and allowed myself
to be and become, and that whatever I experience within and as energy as the
mind is always an illusion for the simple reason that the energy is dependent
on outside influences because of being finite, rather than realising that who i
truly am remains forever HERE as stability and infinity within and as the
physical as life as the truth of me, and that when I am caught within the
experiences of myself as positive energy, that I stop through the application
of BREATHING and the tools of self-investigation through writing,
self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so that I stop
all participation within energy as the mind and realise myself as LIFE as the
physical as all as one as equal.
I forgive
myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the games
of “energy exchanges” when I am participating within whatever activities with
the company of a friend, such as my accepted and allowed participation within
gossiping and blame and judgments that I participate in whenever I am with a
friend because of the habit that I have created of participating within such
activities when within the relationship with another, instead of realising that
the games that I play when with the company of others as friends of mine, are games
that doesn’t stand for oneness and equality as they are a statement of
separation as the perceived differences in the mind, whereas I am and become
completely unstable because of being manipulated and governed/directed by the
energies within and as my mind - instead of stopping such participations
through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and
self-corrective application so as to build self-trust and self-will so that to
CHANGE what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as a system of abuse,
and become equal to the system of life which is the system of oneness and
equality between all living beings.
I forgive
myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to build a habit of
participating within games of energies when I am with the company of others,
such as friends, wherein i have conditioned myself into behaving in ways where
I allow myself to generate situations of “laughter” so as to build the positive
energies within and as myself and another as myself, instead of realising that
through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within such games of
gaining positive energies, that I automatically accept and allow myself to
participate within negative energies within and as myself because of the equal
and one relationship between positive energy and negative energy, whereas as I
experience positive energy within and as myself, I automatically invite
negative energy within and as myself within another moment of self-expression –
which are specifically the moments where I experience the “other side” of the
conditions that I have generated within and as my mind in order to
experience/exchange positive energy, such as when I am alone with myself rather
than being with the company of another, wherein I experience the negative discharge
of energy when the condition of the manifestation of the positive energy within
me is not present anymore = such as when I am alone with myself I tend to
experience the “other side” of the positive energy that I experience when I am
with the company of another. Within this, i forgive myself that i haven’t
accepted and allowed myself to realise that through me accepting and allowing
myself to participate within the exchange of positive energies when I am with
another, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within the
exchange of negative energies when I am not with another, such as when I am
alone with myself and that through this, that I accept and allow myself to be
possessed by thoughts of negativity such as thoughts of “killing myself”
because of not having built self-love and self-trust when within the company of
myself alone. I now see/understand/realise that for me to stop myself from
participating within negative thoughts that comes from / are birthed from the
experience of myself as the mind as negative energy, that I have to stop myself
from participating within positive thoughts that comes from/are birthed from
the experience of myself as positive energy, wherein I become possessed and
delude myself into thinking/believing that everything is fine with the world,
whereas this is far from the truth as the system of abuse as the system of the
world is based on such desires of “gaining more positive energy”/”gaining more
money” at all cost, where life gets left to rot only because of the selfish
desires of humanity to always gain more and more and more positive energy/money
at the expense of life/god/the physical, and that for me to come back to my
senses and be HERE as equal and one with the physical, that I have to stop myself
from participating within the games of energy as the mind, through the tools of
self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and
self-corrective application.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “charge myself up” through
the practices of meditation techniques from within which the purpose of the
practices is to gain as much positive energy as possible, for the soul purpose
of satisfying the desires of my self-interests – within this, I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to be blinded by my desires as
self-interests, whereas I only seek to satisfy my self-interests of becoming as
happy as I can be through the accumulation of positive energy, while i accept
and allow this world to be destroyed through the greed/abuse of self-interests
as the system of mankind, only because of my personal and separate desires to
have my own personal heaven as separation from all and everything, rather than
realising that through me separating myself from all and everything within the
self-interested purpose of constructing/gaining my own little heaven, that I am
actually separating myself from who I truly am as life as the physical as all
as one as equal and that I will eventually face the dire consequences of that
self-separation at death – instead of stopping such self-interested behaviours
through the investigation of myself as what I have accepted and allowed myself
to be and become as abuser of life, so that I may come to see the constructs
within and as my mind so that, from within the starting point of
self-awareness, that I stop all of my participation within the system of abuse
as the system of self-interest only, and become equal to the interest of all as
one as equal as life as the physical, so that we/I can CHANGE what we/I have
accepted and allowed myself to be and become as humanity and become the living
examples of what we truly are as life which acts for the best interests of all
living beings as equals and one.
I forgive
myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear presenting myself to
another human being without first being energised within and as my mind
consciousness system, because of the fear of not having the energy to be able
to “find the words to communicate with” when with the company of another,
because of having conditioned myself to “perform better within my conversations
with others as myself” when I am under the influence of a positively charged
accumulation of energy, wherein the “words to communicate with” comes easier/faster
when I am positively charged with energy – within this, I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to fear communicating with another human
being, such as communicating with a sales clerk, when i am not firstly charged
with and as energy because of the fear that I have of others seeing/thinking
that I am strange for “talking too slow” because of the fact that the words
within my mind doesn’t come as easily when I am not firstly charged with
positive energy. Within this, I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed
myself to be directed by the energy as the mind when within the act of
communicating with another, wherein the words comes more easily when I am
firstly charged with positive energy in contrast of the words not coming as easily
when I am not firstly charged with positive energy. Within this, I forgive
myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that I don’t need
the accumulation of positive energy to be able to talk with another human being
as myself, within the perspective of having words come easily within and as my
being, and that if the words are still directed/governed by the presence or
lack of the presence of the accumulation of positive energy within and as my
mind, that I am thus still directed by the mind as energy and that for me to
stop myself from participating within such a limitation within and as my
expression of myself, that I have to firstly STOP myself from participating
within the accumulation of positive energy within and as the mind, through the
tools of self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and
self-corrective application, so that I can free my expression from the
conditions that I programmed into my being such as the need to
generate/accumulate positive energy within and as my mind before talking to
another as myself, and thus allowing myself to express myself unconditionally
for the first time.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and perceive that i
need energy in order to be able to express myself to others, wherein I have
programmed myself into acquiring/manipulating the energies within and as my
mind so as to accumulate as much as positive energy as possible before allowing
myself to communicate with another being as myself, because of the accepted and
allowed belief as condition that I have placed within and as my expression,
that in order for me to be able to be listened to, that I have to express
myself with as much as energy as possible so that the people to whom I am expressing
myself to, doesn’t get distracted by other things around them so as to keep
them “locked into me” for the purpose of them satisfying my self-interest of
being listened to/being given attention to, rather than them placing their
attention on other things than my expression as my desire to be listened to.
Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek
to control/manipulate others as myself through the usage/expression of myself
as “high energy” so that I may be given attention to within the
belief/perception that people around me are as addicted as me to energy and
that because of expressing myself within the starting point of high energy,
that I thus automatically attract and maintain the attention of others around
me – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself
to realise that through me accepting and allowing myself to participate within
the act of manipulating others around me through me projecting myself as the
“reserve of high energy” as the mind, that I thus automatically enslave myself
and others as myself within and as the system of abuse as the system of
gaining/attracting as much energy as possible without considering the
consequences towards life as the physical because of only being controlled/directed
by self-interest alone, instead of stopping such participation within
self-interest through the tools of self-investigation that comes from writing,
self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, so that I can
free myself from the programming of the mind and so that I can script myself as
my new behaviour within the starting point of acting within the interest of
what is best for all life, Equal and one with all living beings of this world.
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate
within such games of mind polarity such as the game of competing for “positive
energy” as the mind, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow
myself to participate within the mind as games of competition, that I automatically
accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which
abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as
life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am
ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal,
wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective
application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living
example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for
the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for
everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through
the reaction of “seeking to accumulate as much positive energy as possible
before communicating with another human being” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind
myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for
it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of seeking
to project myself as having high energy to others, I stop, breathe, see if i
have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which
the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality
game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality
as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here
in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about
myself as the feeling/experience of high/positive energy, through the use of
thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition,
comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example
of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of
illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living
Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness,
self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the
frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express
myself unconditionally for the first time.
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