I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel
different than those my age group because of not having what those my age group
generally have/possess, as I do not have a job or a girlfriend or a personal
family, wherein I thus separate myself from those my age group because of seeing
myself as being different within my possessions in relation to what those my
age group generally possess, instead of realising that that feeling of being
different originate from the judgements/blame that I hold towards and within
myself for not “fitting in” through me not possessing what those my age group
generally possess, and thus that I can stop that feeling of being different
through me stopping myself from participating within judgments/blame towards
and within myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge/blame myself
as being inferior to those my age group because of not possessing what those my
age group generally possess, such as a family and/or a job, and that from
within this judgment, that I generate feelings of uneasiness within and as
myself because of having accepted and allowed myself to be conditioned through
the beliefs/thoughts/perception that has come from others as myself, wherein it
is generally perceived that those who do not have a job or a girlfriend when
reaching my age group, are generally sad and depressive people. Within this, I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe/experience
myself as being sad and depressive because of having subconsciously associated
the fact of being alone at my age with the feelings of depression.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate
feelings of negative energy within the fact/act of being alone, such as not
having a girlfriend/family at my age group, instead of realising that through
me accepting and allowing myself to participate within those feelings of negative
energy within the fact/act of being alone at my age group, that I thus
automatically generate feelings of positive energy that automatically emerges
within the depths of me when I do have a girlfriend and/or family, which makes
me thus a slave to the energies of the mind through me being
directed/controlled by the emotions/feelings within and as my mind, instead of
stopping such separation and becoming the self-directive principle of me in my
life through me stopping my participation within energies as the mind through
the tools of BREATHING, writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and
self-corrective application. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate
feelings of positive energy within the fact/act of being with someone, such as
having a girlfriend and/or family, wherein those feelings of positive energy
fuels my addiction to energy and thus only furthers my separation within and as
the energy as the mind, instead of realising that through me accepting and
allowing myself to participate within those feelings of positive energy within
the idea/projection of myself being with a girlfriend/family, that I thus
automatically generate feelings of negative energy that automatically emerges
within the depths of me when I do not have a girlfriend and/or family, which
makes me thus a slave to the energies of the mind through me being
directed/controlled by the emotions/feelings within and as my mind, instead of
stopping such separation and becoming the self-directive principle of me in my
life through me stopping my participation within energies as the mind through
the tools of BREATHING, writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and
self-corrective application.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate
within the games of the mind, such as the games of superiority and inferiority,
through me comparing myself with the adults my age group – within this, I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the game of
comparison with those my age group, wherein I would compare physical attributes
and possessions between me and those my age group so as to “identify” my
position within a spectrum of “good or bad” wherein I would judge myself as being
“good” when I have “more than” what another person from my age group possess,
and where I would judge myself as being “bad” when I have “less than” what another
person from my age group possess – instead of stopping such participation
within the polarity of the mind through the tools of self-investigation through
writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my
interpretation/appreciation of myself on the possessions that I have or do not
have, wherein I experience positive energy within and as myself whenever I have
possessions that are perceived as being positive within one’s life at my age
and where I experience negative energy within and as myself whenever I do not
have what is perceived as being positive within one’s life at my age.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be
content within and as myself as I continuously seek to be with someone in order
to generate the experience/feeling of contentment within and as myself, instead
of realising that who I am as life as the physical is naturally content, not
needing anyone to complete what is naturally complete within and as myself. I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be so extensively controlled
by my mind, that I only feel content when I am with another. I now
see/understand and realise that this natural contentment comes from and through
the tools of self-investigation, writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and
self-corrective application, so as to release myself from the cultural conditioning
from within which I have placed conditions to the experience of myself as being
content, so as to release my natural inborn contentment of being who I am and
thus express myself unconditionally for the first time.
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate
within such games of mind polarity such as the game of “haves” and “have not”,
through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to
participate within the mind as games of comparison, that I automatically accept
and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses
substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own
sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not,
as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there
is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective
application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living
example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for
the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for
everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through
the reaction of “feeling depressed because of being alone” pattern, I stop,
breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want
to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One
and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of being rejected
by those my age group, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to
self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so,
I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i
stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to
a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about
myself as the feeling/experience of loneliness, through the use of thoughts and
emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and
games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could
be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back
into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness,
self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the
frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express
myself unconditionally for the first time.
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