Today, I have been awarded with the “present” of being able to join the
DIP program for one year for free, which I consider as being a gift that has
been sent out to me by the cool folks at Desteni for having proven that I am
committed with walking my process breath by breath, moment by moment and day by
day – as I am now in my 42nd day of committing myself to daily writing
through the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective
application.
Now, as I have been granted to join with the DIP program, I have consequently
been granted to start with the first lessons of the program, wherein I have to
gradually move up within the program, step by step to make sure that I am well
acquainted with the Desteni material and that I am able to self-direct me
within my own world through the self-empowering/liberating tools given by
Desteni (writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective
application). The reaction that came up within myself however, was a reaction
of “oh no, I don’t want to go and read all of the Desteni material again”
because of having already read all of the articles posted on the Desteni main
web site – desteni.org. This reaction came up within me after I realised that,
after logging in to my DIP account page for the first time, I would have to
read the lengthy documents that are suggested to read for the purpose of the
DIP program. I reacted this way because, like I said earlier, I have already
read almost if not all of the articles made by Sunette and the dimensions from
the Desteni.org web page and that I believed that because of that fact, that I
could be able to bypass some of the firsts lessons because of already being
well acquainted with the Desteni material.
Now obviously, this reaction is calling for self-forgiveness which I
will do shortly, but I just want to clarify that after having exchanged emails
with my DIP buddy, that I have realised that it is in my best interest to read
what has been laid out before me in the DIP program even if it means that I’ll
have to probably re-read some of the articles that I have already read in the
past. It’s been a while since I read those articles, and a good review is never
a bad thing since I my perspective regarding Desteni have greatly changed since
I first read the articles back in the year 2008. So, I’m sure that the exercise
in reading all of the documents that will be sent out to me in the course of my
DIP participation, will be worth my while, since it will allow me to attune my
perspective towards the Desteni material so that I may stand clear within and
as the depths of myself regarding what I have committed myself to, which is the
7 to 14 years process of self-purification in order that I may script myself
into what is best for all life, as what is best for all life is best for
myself. For more information regarding this process, see here.
Self-forgiveness on the reactions that came up – having to start over:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react within
spite as myself when I became aware that I would have to start over with the
lectures of the Desteni material, wherein I was discouraged at the notion that
I would probably have to re-read some of the documents that I have already read
in the past concerning the Desteni material, which meant that I would have to
give more time for the lectures of the material wherein I wasn’t “happy”/”pleased”
about that fact because of considering myself as being “above” the act of
having to read the introduction material to Desteni. Within this, I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react within myself in a way
that I silently compared myself within the silences of my mind as backchat, to
that of feelings of being “happy”, wherein I have automatically/mechanically
compared the idea of having to probably re-read the Desteni material again as
being a “negative energetic reaction”, to the idea/perception of not having to
re-read the Desteni material again as being a “positive energetic reaction”,
because of the notion/belief that because of me having already read most if not
all of the Desteni material, that this empowers me to skip some lessons in
order to get into the lessons which are relevant to my current understanding of
the Desteni material – instead of realising that it is not about my current
understanding of the Desteni material, wherein I perceived myself as already
knowing a lot of/about Desteni and it’s message since having read most if not
all of the articles found within the Desteni web page (desteni.org), but that
it is about me standing within humility within the act of restarting within
myself, so as to clear all points of uncertainty/misconception regarding the
Desteni material, so as to stand clear within and as the process as myself so
as to never look back again and be clear on all of the reasons why it is of the
utmost importance for me to participate within the 7 years to life process, so
that I may stop the mind/consciousness/energetic reactions within myself so
that I may be able to birth life from the physical, so as to CHANGE what we
have accepted and allowed ourselves to become as humanity as the abuse/misuse
of life/physicality, and bring about what is best for all life, Equal and One
with all living beings.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself
as being “above” the act of having to “start from the beginning” regarding the
Desteni material, because of the notion/CONception that the “knowledge and
information” that I already had/have regarding the Desteni material, was/is
enough for me to go directly into subjects which are at deeper levels of
application within the DIP program, wherein I perceived myself as “knowledge
and information” as the mind only and that from within that perspective, that I
used justification/spite/blame towards my position as being “above” the
position of a newcomer – instead of realising that I was actually accepting and
allowing myself to participate within the polarity of the mind, as superiority
and inferiority as the projected image of myself that I had of being “above” a newcomer
only because of the “knowledge and information” that I had regarding the
Desteni material. Within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed
myself to realise that “knowledge and information alone” is useless, and that
unless knowledge and information is used for practical application within the
practical living of myself HERE within and as this world, that the “knowledge
and information” from within the perspective of “knowledge and information
alone” is completely useless – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to use “knowledge and information” as benchmark for the
consideration of my position concerning the Desteni material, whereas I used
within my mind, spite and justification in order to justify my own
self-righteousness within the notion that “knowledge and information alone” was
enough to make me go directly to later stages of the DIP program, not seeing
myself as being Equal and One with all participants within the DIP program, but
seeing me as being “different”/”special” than those who are newcomer to the Desteni
material – only because of the fact that I already had the “knowledge and
information” concerning the Desteni material. Within this, I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to see/perceive/project me as being “different”
than those who are newcomer to the Desteni material, because of the mind’s
interpretation that “knowledge and information alone” in regards to the Desteni material was/is enough to make me “different”/”special”
than any other newcomer of the Desteni material, not seeing/understanding or
realising that “knowledge and information alone” doesn’t make me better than
anyone in this world, as knowledge and information alone doesn’t change shit in
this world, and that as long as I perceive and believe knowledge and
information to be benchmark of my status in this world, that I am entrapping
myself within the games of the mind as useless garble instead of releasing
myself from such mind possessions, and become equal and one with the physical
as life as all as one as Equal – wherein I am equal and one within my starting
point within the DIP program, wherein I am one and equal with any newcomer to
the Desteni material as I have yet to have proven myself as being worthy of
Life through the 7-14 years to life process.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react
negatively to the idea of having to read the introduction material to the
Desteni principle from within my DIP application, whereas I experienced
deception within and as myself after having first realised that I would have to
read the introduction material to the Desteni principle/message over again, as
I have already read most if not all of the Desteni material from the Desteni
web page (desteni.org), instead of realising that the act of reading the
Desteni material again, presents itself as being an opportunity for me to
correct/remove unconscious/subconscious beliefs systems that are still present
within and as my mind, through the reading of the Desteni introduction material,
wherein the act of reading the Desteni material again would grant me new
perspectives towards what I/we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and
become as self/humanity and that from there, take a stand so as to no more
accept and allow myself to be directed by illusionary beliefs systems as the
mind, and to bring myself back HERE within and as the physical as the BREATH
through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and
self-corrective application.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be deceived
by the idea that I would have to re-read the Desteni material again, not
realising that the deception was/is not in the act of having to re-read the
Desteni material again, but that the deception was/is within the thought of
myself as the thought of “not having to read the material again” as that
thought is/was me deceiving myself into believing/thinking that I was “above”
the act of “reading the desteni material again”, wherein it would not be
necessary for me to read the Desteni material again, because of the deception
that “knowledge and information” played within my mind as the
self-proclaimed/self-justified god in my mind, wherein I would from within the
stance of knowledge and information, claim that I already “know it all” and
that because of that, that it wasn’t necessary for me to read the Desteni
material again – instead of realising that the simple fact that I reacted to
this information, whether slightly or greatly, proves without the shadow of a
doubt that I am not “above it all” as I am still enslaved by the reactions of
the mind and thus, cannot yet be trusted by life as that which is the only
authoritative god in this world/existence.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise
that I was spiteful towards the newcomers to the Desteni material, as proven by
my reaction of negative friction towards the fact that I would have to “get
down to the levels of a newcomer” in regards to the Desteni material found
within the DIP course, and relinquish my self-proclaimed/self-justified
position as a “know it all” concerning the Desteni material, while the actual
truth of me as self-application clearly shows that knowledge and information is
useless unless it is used for practical application, wherein the “knowledge and
information” regarding the Desteni material doesn’t amount to anything unless
it is used for REAL actual practical application, such as the application of
self-investigation through writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and
self-corrective application, and that as long as I do not practically put into
use the knowledge and information found within the Desteni material, as was the
case when I first read the Desteni material, that the Desteni material is
useless. I know see/realise/understand the opportunity that is presenting
itself to me within the act of reviewing all of the Desteni material within the
newly acquired perspective of practical application, whereas I am only now
ready/decided to put all of the practical information found within the Desteni
material to use, which wasn’t yet the case when I first read the Desteni
material. Thus, the new perspective that I know have regarding the importance
of actually applying the knowledge and information found within the Desteni
material, gives me a fresh and new outlook on the material, giving depths of
perspective that wasn’t present within myself as I first ran through the
document a few years ago.
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate
within such games of mind polarity as the projection of myself as inferiority/superiority,
through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to
participate within the mind as inferiority/superiority, that I automatically
accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which
abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as
life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am
ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal,
wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective
application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living
example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for
the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for
everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through
the reaction of “deception of starting anew” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind
myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for
it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of deception
as the reaction of friction experimented when realising that I have to start
anew, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into
Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself,
stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop,
self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a
pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about
myself as the feeling/experience of deception, through the use of thoughts and
emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and
games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could
be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back
into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing,
self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the
desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so
allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
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