I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about
quitting the 7 years to life process because of currently having difficulties
in finding subjects to write about within my 7 years to life process blog,
whereas I tend to think that I am going in circles because of not finding
relative subjects/points to write about, wherein I seem to revisit points which
were relevant to what I was going through within past posts instead of finding
new points/subjects which are relevant to the current moment – instead of
realising that it is not about writing about new and different subjects from
posts to posts, but to write about what is busy occurring within and as myself
at a given moment in time even if that means that I have to revisit a point
that was previously visited upon, because of the realisation that a point can resurface
from one moment to another, within that a new facet of a point may resurface from
one moment to another, from layers to layers whereas a new layer always present
a new perspective from within which the point can be explored/self-forgiven on –
within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to
realise that points are multi-layered within and as myself, and that the effective
release of a specific point can take a lot of self-forgiveness and time to get
through.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I
am going in circles within my 7 years to life process blog, because of the
belief that I am currently stuck within my process whereas I seem to revisit
points that I have already written self-forgiveness on, instead of the
realisation that it does not matter if I revisit a point that I already visited
in the past, because the purpose of myself writing myself out to freedom
through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective
application, is not to invent new points that are not relevant to what I am
currently busy working on within myself, but to write about the points which
are directly relative to what I am experiencing within and as myself as the
mind at a specific moment in time, even if that means that I have to revisit a
point, because the mind works in cycles whereas patterns are set within and as
myself as the mind, and that through me facing myself as the mind, that it
inevitably means that I have to face myself as the patterns as the different
facets of a point that I have constructed within and as myself as the mind. I
now see realise and understand that a point is multi-layered within and as
myself as the mind, and that the depths as the different layers of a point may
be revealed within another moment whereas different patterns within the point
may emerge depending on the time and circumstance of me facing the point.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise
that a point as that which I face as myself as the mind, is a pattern which have
been constructed as and within different dimensions of the self, whereas I may
one day face a specific dimension of a point within the limited depths of what
I allow myself to face within that specific day as that which is relevant to
the self in a given day, while I face within another day, another specific
dimension as another layer of the depths of the same point which is relevant to
the self in another given day – as the points are always multi-layered and that
it takes time, self-commitment, self-devotion and self-discipline in order to work out all of
the depths and layers of myself as a specific point as myself as the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about
quitting my 7 years to life process blog, because of the time it sometimes
takes me to write about my daily entries within my blog, whereas it sometimes
takes me an hour or more to write about my self-forgiveness statements or any
other subject that is faced as myself within my blog, wherein I would sometime get
discouraged about writing because of the time it takes me and because my mind
would find it difficult to remain focussed within such time frames, whereas I
would think of other “more pleasurable” things to do such as watching
television or playing video games – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t
accepted and allowed myself to realise that the “things” which are occupying my
mind as I write my self-forgiveness statements or any other subjects of concern
within my blog, are mostly things which are birthed from the addictions of the
mind as what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as the illusion of
self, such as the addictions of participating within games of energy as polarity
manifestations within the mind, such as watching an “entertaining” television program
or playing an “entertaining” video game – wherein the “entertainment factor”
would be determined by the amount of positive energy I would allow within
myself through my active participation within entertainment -, instead of
realising that each time I accept and allow myself to participate within the
polarity of the mind as the “positive energy”, I also accept and allow myself
to participate within the “negative energy” as the mind, whereas the opposite
energy will be experienced as soon as the positive energy will have run out.
Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play
the mind’s game in existing within the polarity of positivity and negativity
and defining such a polarity existence of the mind as who I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire doing
more “entertaining things” than to write daily in my blog, such as watching
television, playing video games or going outside with friends, instead of
devoting myself entirely to the process through me being fully invested within
the act of writing, without no back-chat wherein I would tell myself to hurry
up so that I can/could go and do some more “entertaining things” than to write
in my blog – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed
myself to see, realise and understand that the best gift I could/can give to
myself is the gift of self-forGIVEness, wherein through me forgiving myself for
what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the mind, I am
giving myself the gift of LIFE, as the process of writing through
self-forGIVEness is the process of giving to myself the power to CHANGE so that
I can become a living example for all, showing to all as myself what it is to
be a responsible human being who acts from within the starting point of that
which is best for all, for that which is best for all life is best for myself,
Equal and One with all living beings.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire
quitting before reaching the end of my 7 years to life process because of the
thought of “it’s going to be long before the end of the process” from within
which I discourage myself because of the apparently lengthy amount of time
required for the process of re-programming oneself to LIFE – within this, I
forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that it’s
going to take time, more or less 7 years, before I will have re-programmed/re-scripted
myself into that which is best for all life, because of the fact that I’ve been
programming myself as the mind ever since I was born and that it will take time
to deconstruct that programming so that what remains is me HERE as who I truly
am as the physical as that which acts for the interests of all life, Equal and
One with all living beings.
I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective
application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living
example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for
the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for
everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If
and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the “desire
to quit” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as
the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what
is best for all, One and Equal.
When
and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of desire as the
thought of “wanting to quit before the end”, I stop, breathe, see if i have
missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the desire
arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the desire game and self-correct,
if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in desire as an automated response
to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.
I
commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about desiring
to quit before the end, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas
and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and
losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone
outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as
the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I
commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness,
self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop
judgments within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally
for the first time.
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