dimanche 3 juin 2012

7 years journey to life: Day 25: Not being intelligent enough






I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself as being not intelligent enough to understand issues that concerns the adults, like the state of the world in general and our responsibility towards it, instead of realising that the intelligence is not a by-product of the mind and it’s participation, but the product of nature as the physicality as the true intelligence within and as me as life, equal and one with the physical.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act as if I am not intelligent enough when comes the time to talk/discuss/exchange about subjects concerning the adults and it’s implied responsibility towards the state of the world, because of me not wanting to be responsible within the idea/belief/thought that responsibility means/equal “no fun”, from within which the desire/want/need of “fun” has been a goal of mine ever since I was a child growing up in this world, within which I perceived the goal of life as “having fun” and that I had to do whatever it took in order to “have fun” regardless of the consequences and consequence-outflows, because of the fear of living a life which wasn’t fun, instead of realising that intelligence comes from responsibly self-directing ourselves/myself towards what is best for all life as the principle of Oneness and Equality.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear leading a life which is not fun, because of the relationship I have made towards and within responsibility where I would perceive the word as being “not fun” in comparison to the word “irresponsibility” for which I perceived as being “fun” because of having linked/related “irresponsibility” with “careless fun” from within which I would experience myself as “ignorance is bliss” rather than be/become a responsible human being in this world through the tools/application of writing, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application allowing me to build self-trust, self-love and self-honesty from which the benchmark of responsibility would be/is set.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being not intelligent enough to take part in the workings of this society as an excuse for me not to face myself within and as the contexts of social interactions rather than stopping myself from judging myself as not being intelligent enough as excuses which excuses my participation within the social workings of this world, through the acts of writing myself to freedom, self-forgiveness and self-corrective application from within which true intelligence emerges as one/myself take oneself/myself to the accepted and allowed nature of ourselves/myself as the mind, so that I/we can change intelligently through becoming a true responsible human beings which acts within the interests of what is best for all life, Equal and One within and as the physical.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the fact that I had a hard time learning within my formative years, as an excuse justifying the thought/excuse/idea/blame/spite towards myself that I am not intelligent enough to fix the problems of this world – within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the low grades I’ve had while within my formative years, as excuses excusing me from actively participating within the “finding solutions for the world” instead of realising that the only reason why I didn’t allow myself to participate within the solutions of the world, was/is because of the lack of devotion/participation/laziness that have become the accepted and allowed nature of myself through my active participation in games of the mind, such as games of comparisons, winners and losers instead of stopping my participation in such games through the given realisations that stems from self-forGIVEness that these activities of the mind does not serve me or what is best for all life, Equal and One as the physical.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as being not intelligent enough to understand the politics of this world, where I would deliberately turn a “blind eye” to the politics of the world, only because of my inner desire of not burdening myself with such problems as “weight on my shoulders”, because of wanting/needing/desiring to remain within mental states of bliss/positivity which is/was absolute dishonesty, instead of realising that through the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, self-trust and self-love emerges as the true intelligence of the physical as life, One and Equal as the Universe.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being not intelligent enough to share/help/guide others within and as their own processes as birthing themselves to life, using justification, blame and spite towards myself as excuses to not actively participate/help/share/guide others within and as themselves, as they are walking their processes Equal and One with what they/we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be and become as the mind, instead of actively participating within the guidance/helping/sharing with others through the sharing of my self-forgiveness’s and realisations so that we may all help ourselves within and through each other to transcend our accepted and allowed nature as the mind, so that one day we may all become free, Equal and One with the physical as life as the universe.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide the true nature of me as what I have accepted and allowed myself to become as the mind, as the nature of irresponsibility, through me stating that “I am not intelligent enough to participate within solutions of the world” while in fact, my intelligence was never in question but where it was rather my “irresponsible/lazy” nature as the mind that was the culprit.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide my laziness behind such irrational claims as “I am not intelligent enough to act/change the problems of the world” and through this, suppressing my self-ignorance within and throughout layers of dishonesties so that I could continue on protecting my “laziness” so as to remain “blissful” within and as my laziness rather than realizing that the “blissful” nature can never be REAL unless each and every living being is blissful – which  will only come through the change of our current world system which is only interested on the self-interests of the individuals, to the implementation of a new world economic system, such as the Equal Money System, which will/is be only focussed and interested towards what is best for all life.



I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to realise that behind the claim that “I am not intelligent enough to solve the problems of this world” LIES the desire to remain “lazy” because of my desire to remain “at peace in my own little room” rather than to torment myself with finding solutions to the abuse that is rampant in all ways within the current system of the world.



If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the "I am not intelligent enough" pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.



When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of blame/spite/justification as the thought of “I am not intelligent enough”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the blame/spite/justification arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the blame/spite/justification game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in blame/spite/justification as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse as the statement of “I am not intelligent enough” and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.



I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about "not being intelligent enough to change" through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.



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