Today, I will do self-forgiveness statements regarding the cyst that I have talked about in my previous post here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
be frustrated because of the fact that my cyst keeps on bleeding and
that the doctors that I have seen so far, refuse to operate it for the
moment because of having to wait for my scheduled appointment with the
cyst specialist before the cyst to be operated upon.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience feelings of
discomfort within and as myself as reactions towards my current
situation with the pilonidal cyst, whereas the cyst keeps on spewing
puss and blood and that I have to place a swab on it so as to control
the spewing of blood and puss as best I can so that the blood and puss
doesn’t spill to my underwear (being that the cyst is situated at the
base of my coccyx) and pants, instead of remaining here within stability
within the perspective that there is nothing else that I can do for the
moment and that it is no use for me to constantly and continuously
experience discomfort within and as myself as a constant preoccupation
of my situation with the cyst as this is me participating within the
worries of the mind instead of remaining HERE stable within and as
myself as who I am here within the totality of my physical being and
presence.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself
to project myself into the concerns and worries of the mind, such as me
worrying constantly and continuously about my present predicament with
the cyst whereas it keeps on bleeding and spewing puss without it
showing signs of healing – which only fuels my worries and
preoccupations within and as the mind because of the fact that the
problem remains and doesn’t heal even after about two months of almost
constant bleeding and spewing of puss – instead of realising that I have
done all in my power to heal the open wound of the cyst and that there
is nothing else that I can personally do in order to heal/correct the
wound as I have reached the limits of what I can personally do in this
circumstance and that the best that I can do for the moment, is to stop
myself from constantly and continuously participate within the worries
of the mind regarding this problem and stabilise myself HERE within and
as who I truly am as presence as the physical body, so as to stop myself
from reinforcing the enslavement of the mind as worries and concern,
and remain here present within and as who I truly am as life as the
physical – the problem will be fixed when I’ll have my scheduled
appointment with the cyst specialist.
I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to have participated within the personality
of waiting for my cyst to be removed by the cyst specialist, wherein I
have been tempted to move most of my responsibilities/commitments into
the future because of being currently too concerned and worried about my
cyst to apply myself within stopping myself from participating within
the mind, whereas there is almost no place left for me to “think/act”
about something else, such as my current process of self-forgiveness,
self-honesty and self-corrective application, because of the
overwhelming preoccupation/concern within the fact that my pilonidal
cyst keeps on bleeding no matter what I do to stop it from bleeding,
instead of realising that the personality of “waiting for the medical
appointment with the cyst specialist” is of absolutely no use to me as I
am thus only allowing myself to procrastinate because of the
self-justification as the excuse of “utilising the bleeding cyst” as a
reason for me to skip some of my responsibilities towards myself because
of the desire to wait for the cyst problem to be fixed/healed before
allowing myself to concentrate on the other issues/responsibilities in
my life – within this, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to realise that as long as I can control the cyst from
spewing too much blood or puss, that I can still participate within my
responsibilities of writing myself to freedom through the use of
self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application, exactly
as how I have been doing for the past few months or ever since the
problem with my cyst first started.
I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to imagine the worst of scenarios concerning
my bleeding cyst, within me thinking/believing that the cyst specialist
won’t be able to fix the problem as all I have heard from the doctors
so far regarding my cyst, is that they can do nothing about it for the
moment whereas I have to wait for the cyst specialist in order to
see/determine if I do in fact need a small operation in order to clean
the wound and to finally close it so as for it to finally stop spewing
blood and puss, instead of realising that as long as I have not yet met
the cyst specialist, that there is no use for me to imagine the worst of
scenarios as this is not assisting and supporting me within and as my
process.
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to
participate within such games of mind as worrying and concerning myself
for things which I cannot control, through the realisation that as long
as I accept and allow myself to participate within the mind as worrying
and concerning myself for things which are out of my control, that I
automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as
the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the thusly
generated friction and consumption of the physical as life for the own
sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy and in fact make the
situation worse – to which I am ultimately not of energy, as who I am is
one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO
ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.
I commit myself
to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and
self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to
others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the
interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for
everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.
If and when I see
myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of
“worrying and concerning myself for things which I can’t control”
pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as
the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me
and what is best for all, One and Equal.
When and as I see myself
moving into the automatic personality of worry and concern, I stop,
breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into
Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive
myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i
stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated
response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as
Breath.
I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas
and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of worry and concern,
through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs
about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers
to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone
outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into
Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.
I
commit myself to assist and support myself through writing,
self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop
the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as
me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.
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